All us independent girls
We're hypocrites
We still want to fall in love
With the boy
Who will pick us flowers
And kiss our cheeks
And fuck our brains out

I must admit, you're creeping me out
And the thought of sleeping with you again
Makes me a little sick

Well, here it goes:

I don't believe in God.
So I'm probably going to hell.

But hey! I don't believe in hell, either.

Get Gone

I peeled my lips back
See
Cause my mouth isn't big enough
Isn't big enough
To hold the blood of 10,000 people
Who were erased

My mother wrapped me in a blue blanket
She wasn't really my mother
I figured this out because of her long eye lashes
Short temper, and freckled skin

The streets are red
The beds are empty
Gray haired women
Grip signs
Pray for the babies
That they feel
They feel in their heart
When the ghostbaby moves
Or breathes
When they walk the city
Passing them in the street
These women look for their daughter's eyes
In blurry crowds

I felt them cut the chord
Heard the baby cry
I didn't see her
I imagined her little hands
Pressed against mine
I knew I'd never meet her

Sangre sangre sangre
La ciudad de sangre

I am cold
Like stone
Like the barrel of the gun
The one that's pressed against the back of my head

Click.

There's this thing about children
They're full of light and life
But they're so irrational.
Its beautiful, really
To watch them moving through life
Motivated and controlled only by emotion

Katkat
I like it when you're drunk
And I'm lonely
But not when I'm lonely
But...

Well I enjoy our half drunken banter
And the fact that you wont
Sneak out on me in the morning

Its funny
I got so many hugs and kisses today
Skyla put clips in my hair
Brooke kissed my cheeks
Nathaniel hugged my knees and told me he loved me
All of this unconditional love
From these children I love
Letters from non-children
Who I love

And then somehow
Sitting here in my room
Where its quiet
Even though everyone's home

I feel lonely.

The fact of the matter is, no matter who I support, our country's system is broken. It is inherently undemocratic, our economy is failing, and our foundation is an apathetic electorate. There are so many flaws in the American system. When John McCain says "country first"... it makes me angry. Why the fierce nationalism? Why the refusual to take a critical eye to the Constitution. It is not divinely begotten... IT WAS WRITTEN BY MEN. TWO HUNDRED AND 50 YEARS AGO. It is time that it was updated. It is time that we stop viewing ourselves as a perfect country which requires no work. Our last social revolution was over 40 years ago. We're long over due, darlings.

I think what really makes me mad is that no one cares. No one cares children die of hunger. No one cares people can't go to the doctor. No one cares that their voices are not heard. People don't think twice about taking away the rights of our gay and lesbian brothers and sisters (thank you, Obama). Why is it so easy to ignore these issues? If you're making 250,000 a year, can't you spare something to give back to your country? The gap between the middle, upper and lower classes are widening to such a degree that people in the lower classes can't move up. In fact, those on the lower level of the middle class are falling off. This isn't right. And we want to pretend like we're some great nation while we spill the blood of children, sip caramel macchiatos, watch American Idol and ignore not only what is going on in the world BUT IN OUR OWN CITIES. HOW BLIND CAN WE BE? How caloused? I'm sick of hearing "Yeah let's change it" from everyone around me, when no one will get up and do anything.

I want to do something

Today, as I ate cold chicken noodle soup off of the stove with a platic fork, I thought

"This is a flash forward to the single divorced life that I will probably eventually live"

I just came across one of the most disgusting things I've seen in awhile:

http://malibuspamby.livejournal.com/

Such ignorance is appaling. So completely appaling.